Here are two things that I don’t want to do right now!
1. EVER GO TO BED.
Why I don’t want to: Because it means stopping doing things? Even if those things aren’t really that big of a deal (like, I can watch more Big Love tomorrow, right?), I am having a tough time making myself pull away from them and elect to go to sleep. I’ve been sleeping alone more lately, because I wanted to stay at my new apartment for the bulk of August, to make sure my cats don’t have any bed-peeing-on reactions to the move. Jairus has stayed here with me lots, and Chris is here about once a week, but of course has the both have their own cats and homes to attend to. Anyway long story short (I always hear this in Hedwig’s voice) is that I am way better at being responsible for someone else’s bedtime than my own.
Why I will feel better if I do: Oh probably just because when I am well-rested, my entire perspective on the world changes. And also when I am able to do things that I find really challenging, it’s super soothing.
What might help: Using the plug by my bed for my white noise machine, rather than my cell phone. This does two things: Gets my phone out of my bed, for christ sake, and gets my noise machine near it. Right now the noise machine is plugged in at an outlet that requires me to get OUT of bed to turn it on, which is daft.
2. WRITE A BLOG POST
Why I don’t want to: I don’t really know what I am doing with this new blog. I felt like I wanted a bigger audience than I have here at LJ … for some reason … but also I don’t know what kind of posts to write there because I can’t decide if it is for sort of column-style pieces or just “let’s get caught up on everyone’s news” sort of things.
Why I will feel better if I do: Because I actually want to build an audience so I can have a positive impact on the discourse and all that.
What might help: Maybe if I post this list of two things that I don’t want to do, it will help me shake off the feeling that my next blog post (and every blog post) has to be revelatory in some way. Okay I did it.
What are two things YOU don’t want to do today?